05 December, 2003

Christmas is approching

i miss you so much

Thanksgiving Train

1. Marcie: i thank God for giving me friends around me, even though some of them are far from me.

2. Penny: I thank God that you are my friend.

3. Penny: Thank God that he is the opposite of the destructive self.

4. Penny: I thank God that I can love him and he loves me the way I am.

5. Anne Chin¡GI thank God always keep watching me in his way, keep growing and sharing life with people.

6. Katie: I thank God for being faithful, just, and merciful too. He is our best friend in the whole world. Thank God for always being there!!

7. Queenie: thank God for loving me so much, protect me, and give me the best for me.

8. Cathy: I thank God for helping me to honestly face the hard shell of my own self-love which needs to be crushed open for new life to sprout.

9. Maggie: i thank God for loving me and taking care of me .

10. Jeh: i thank God for His faithfulness and love for me even though i dont deserve it sometimes

11. Amanda: I'm thankful for you guys to be my friends and share your friendship, love and
care with me! Thank you Jesus for sacrifice yourself to save me and being my best
friend in my life!


11 November, 2003

Book Review

Michael Chang: Holding Serve
Author: Mike Yorkey
Thomas and Nelson Publishers

I got the book as a Christmas gift from my friend when I was in US last winter. Michael Chang is my favorite tennis player, even though I don’t know much about tennis, so why do I like him? Well, the main reason is his Chinese root; as you know, it is not so easy that a Chinese can be success in western society, but he can make it, and in the other hand is he can really trust God and obey Him in all circumstance; it is not easy for a ‘famous person’, but he can make it.
The book talks about the story of Michael Chang; early years of learning tennis, something interesting during the trip, the relationship with family, and how does he think about God and how he let God rule his life; it’s quite meaningful, many ppl are afraid to talk about their belief in public, but he can do it, cool!
Through the book I learned God uses different ways to draw ppl near and let them know what is His plans for them and also know His ways & times are far beyond our thoughts, sometimes it seems hopeless, but in God, it always be hopeful.
Sometimes I wonder how can a person trust God so much, you know we would get angry while we are facing difficulties or something is not happening our ways, but I’m also touch by the people who trust God always hand keep the simple faith in it. It’s not easy to trust God always, but He is faithful and He won’t forsake us anyway. The book is worthy of reading and I encourage you not just think about the achieves he has, but think about the one who’s behind the scene.

13 October, 2003

Reflection

well, it's hard to tell ppl my inner thoughts..i'm not a linda person w/ open-minded..
and sometimes i feel my heart is ill, but i can't do anthing for it..so back to the course, what is the main reason that i became a Christian? if i do really need God's heal, why can't accept?

13 September, 2003

thoughs of the summer

well, well, well, it's quite hard to judge how was my summer, i felt it just liked a dream; some of them were good, but some of them were nightmares!! things were so dramatic, that i didn't even catch it..
but i finally need to face the reality, don't i ? i wish that i can be a better person since the new term starts

03 September, 2003

The Biggest Lesson

neither learning how to love ppl nor being ms. nice but being brave

01 September, 2003

Promise Me

pls pls be my friend no matter what happens..
i don't wnat to lose it again...

11 August, 2003

My Father

well, i heven't talked too much about my father, not because i don't love him or any reasons but i don't know how to say something about him..

today when i came home after work in the restaurant, he gave me some money in secret and said 'you're an adult & you're supposed to leave some money just in case;i don't have much money to give you, so don't spend all of it.' i didn't say anything even a 'thank you'.. i don't know what should i say..

my father always gives me money in secret. i know he loves me; however, i don't really know how to react, maybe just because chinese culture; i wish i could say something to him..

Forrest Gump

last saturday i saw forrest gump in the hospital while i was taking care of vicky. the movie was quite meaningful, i cried without any reason and my tears were like stream..=P well, i should take photo then..

when forrest's mom was dying, she said 'Life is like a box of chocolates, Forrest. You never know what you're gonna get '.. yeah, i do agree, there are many possibilities in our lives, and we never know what would happened..

i remembered some day i had a talk w/ daniel about the quote, then he asked me, 'what should we do if we ran out of the chocolates?' i said 'buy a new one!!' sounds reasonable, deesn't it? i confess, it's a good question, ya, what whould we do if we ran out of the chocolates? well, i do believe that God would give us a new box of chocolates which is never run out and it would be in heaven and in the earth.

27 July, 2003

HAPPY ENDING

i though i would lose it, but actually not because God has given us the best!!

26 July, 2003

gee..

losing a friend again..

24 July, 2003

Hey

dear, it's not your fault, so pls pls do not blame yourself, ok?
still down, it's all my fault..

09 July, 2003

ok, what am i doing in summmer?

WORKING, WORKING, WORKING, SLEEPING SLEEPING, SLEEPING & HAVIN FUN THOUGH...

i'm a tutor teacher in the day time & sometimes i have classes in the night; i would help my friend in her japanese restaurant as a waitress from the time to time, oh well..

basically, i enjoy my job a lot, i love to be a teacher, especially teaching kids; they are full of surprise always, but i find out, they are very busy as i am, even though they are busier then me, i don't know why do parents send them to classes or ask them to join many activities..
anyway, i wish they would feel happy..
well, i would like to tell you what happened in my life recently..

i broke up w/ my bf on JULY 4 after Shuan's movie party(Shuan must never thought that would be a very day for me), yeah, we were all 'INDEPENDENT' from that day on..so, i won the good meal, but i lost my bf; it's what life about huh? =P

it's good to be single again, but i felt something has lost...no more San Francisco, no more fisherman's whalf, no more UC Berkeley, no more, Stanford, no more Disney, no more LA, no more California, & no more USA...=( adios!! mi amor

well, not too sad, but just feel a shame though..

Wow...it's been a long time that i haven't post it though...

27 January, 2003

well, i confess, i don't know what my life should be; put it in my hand or let God?
would i follow someone i love or let it go, if our love turn to dust?
some say never give up
some say let it be
but what should i do?